Monday, May 28, 2012

Personality Disorder

So I took a personality disorder test here. After answering YES and NO to a very long list of questions, I have arrived to my personality disorders. I was completely shocked with the result.


I'm a paranoid and an avoidant. I'm dependent and schizotypal. I'm somewhat obsessive-compulsive and schizoid and not the others. I was shocked when I read more on the information of those with very high ratings.

on being paranoid (taken from the site):


Honestly, that may be an exaggeration. I may not trust most people in this world that much, but I don't completely distrust them to the the point of having suspicions constantly whether or not they are dependable or not. I certainly do not have excessive trust in my own knowledge and abilities, I often doubt my abilities you know. And that part of avoiding close relationships. I'm not avoiding, I'm not just really into social groups that much. A close group with few friends would be great for me already. Okay, the succeeding sentences are not true already. I'm not that paranoid! I may have just misunderstood some of the questions. I'm re-taking this test.

on being schizotypal (also taken from the site):

Okay I am like this. I avoid social situations (I am a homebody and I would often stay at home though there are many gatherings and parties out there. That is probably why I only have a few friends, and trusts fewer of them. I have this fear of getting rejected especially when we talk about love matters (This may be the reason why I haven't courted a girl yet. I'm afraid of getting rejected. I always ask myself this, "What if she doesn't like me because I'm not handsome?" or, "What if I cannot give her everything and dump me?"). And yeah, I really do create a fantasy world where I rule everything, have all the things I want, and do the things I want. Plus I get to choose my girlfriend is. The last two sentences really struck me most. I do yearn for social relations, but somehow, I just can't have. I'm already 18, and having groups of friends whom I would get along with would be impossible. This is a province. I'm often depressed for many reasons and I know I have low self-confidence. I always had. Though in College, I have to muster enough Courage a bit to face the crowd.

So there goes my personality disorder. I am surely an avoidant. Sucks to be me.

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