Pitch Black

Everything around me turned pitch-black.

You were there, smiling at me. It was the first time I saw you in the darkness but something sprouted out from my heart instantly. It was too late for me to know that it was love.  I tried to forget you a hundred times but you never cease from appearing in front of me. I tried to do some things but I always end up admiring you.

Your sparkling and dazzling eyes are looking at me. You sweet and enchanting smile is killing me. Your beautiful and heavenly voice is melting me. Your pretty and lovable face is making me restless. You… You… Oh, I want to be near you. I want to touch your hand. I wanted to touch that hair. No. I wanted to kiss you. I wanted to kiss you like how they kissed you, but only better. I never wanted to see the light for a moment because in the darkness can I only see you.  I close my eyes and I see you. I am pouring all my emotions to you right now, but I accept that you will never hear me, nor read this.

You are far away, very, very far from where I am now. You’re on Neptune, I’m just on Earth. When you look at me, and when you smile at me, I just look at your photos. When I hear you sing, I just listen to your videos. You are far away from me. You’re even older than me. I am contented with the darkness you are giving me, and how you envelop me with your darkness. Because when I meet with the sun, you will be gone. I only see you again, when I close my eyes.

I whistle while smiling at myself. I have to accept the fact that you and I will never be together. I know. But wherever you are now, I want you to know that I will always love you. I will always treasure you. I will keep you in my arms and never let you go, even just in dreams.

I close my eyes and sleep. There you are smiling at me, singing to me your songs.