Dear God

I am so nervous.


I don't know what to say, or what to do. I am still depressed on the score I got. I know I reviewed well, but still, I got the rating. I know it's the exams so I expect that it will also be reflected on my final grade. God, please, if you could give me a miracle. I badly need it. I really really need that miracle. I know it sounds absurd, but please, give me a miracle.

You know that I love you so much. This is only one of my greatest plea to You God. I am crying inside my heart. Please God.

I love You.

Thank You.

Dear God

Another segment. :D


These posts will be my personal words to God. He hears me all the time. I may write informally because God understands us whatever we may say. I prefer spontaneous ones.

My first post is today or tomorrow.

Battery Life

I’m losing battery life.

You know the reason why? I’ll answer metaphorically.

AGAIN.

I have been charging for about a long time already. I’m connected to the switch. I am taking energy with me so that I can use it when I’m not charged already. Suddenly, negatively charged ions start entering into me. They are giving me putting too much that it’s already hard for me to handle. They are giving me tests which they didn’t even share to me. Now, I am a poor battery, losing life. It’s hard to blame myself because I did the best I can to refute these negatively charged ions but they are just too strong that they are hard to resist. Now, I’m an easily drained battery already. If before, my life span is 95 hours. Now, it’s 81 minutes already. Now this is a problem without any solution. But if the Creator would remove manually the negatively ions and keep me above, then, that would make me change forever. If I will return to even 90 hours of battery life or even just 89 hours, I would surely thank my Creator. But, I just don’t know now.

Another reason why I’m losing battery life is this. I am partnered with another 3A battery. We work together so that this remote control will run smoothly until the end. However, as I observe, it’s only me who’s exerting much effort while the other battery is not. He’s dormant. Now, I don’t know. I’m already exhausted. If he wakes up and starts giving energy and asks me if we could help, I’ll sleep. Karma is that term.

Now for the literal part.

I’m losing battery life. My laptop. It’s losing battery life. When it was new, the battery span was like 7-8 hours long. Now, it’s only 3-4 hours. I don’t know what’s happening. It’s bugging me. It’s making me weak. It’s making me lose battery life. I did the advices of others but, I guess, it’s no use. If only I did not use this as a game boy before. If only I knew of the way to conserve battery life before. Then, at least, I will have 7-8 hours more until now.

I’m just an old generic rechargeable battery. I may be thrown away. But this is for sure, if the Creator plans to keep me, I will gladly do it. I love my Creator.

Partly Introvert

I never really liked joining school activities.


They are just time-wasting and money-wasting. I just prefer staying at home jamming to myself. I would rather sleep than roaming around the campus. That's why, as much as possible, I would avoid these activities. However, these activities are running after me. I just don't know why. Call me freak. I'll call you freaker. LOL

You may say that I'm an introvert. Well, I partly am.

A Simple Act of Kindness

We just made a child smile today.

It was 12:30 PM and we hurriedly went out of the star-studded hall. Our stomachs were grumbling so there there was only one thing in our hungry minds: FOOD. We went to a food stall and ate there.

Today is actually the World's Teachers Day with the theme, "My Teacher, My Hero." It was partly my day because I'm a teacher-to-be; a hero-to-be. 

So, there we were, eating our food, craving for every amount of food available. As we were eating, a poor girl approached us. Her dress was ragged, she was dirty, she was hungry. She begged for alms. She was holding a bottle and she continuously patted it on our table. My companions smiled and patted with her. I also patted with her. We all laughed, but she remained blank. Pitied, I gave her one peso and she instantly left. 

One of my companions was pitied that she invited the little girl to eat with us. I know it sounds downgrading but we gave to her our leftovers -- the food we haven't finished. Well, it doesn't sound that gross yet because I also eat some of my companions' food once they don't eat those already -- as long as they are clean. So, we combined all our food together and she ate it joyfully. We waited for her to finish all of the food we gave her. We even gave her a bottle of water to drink. It was too late for us to realize that she was also giving her brother food. 

It felt heaven to do something like that to her. I felt happy for her being able to eat food we gave to her. Some unexplainable feelings keep popping inside my heart. It was a simple thing that we did, but it became very big for her. Argh. We became simple heroes on this day of the World's Teachers Day -- after all, we're all future teachers. We became a hero by just feeding her. All Smiles! :D

We hear her say, "Thank you," with a smile as we left her there.

#thatawkwardmoment when I'm turning 18. (part 2)

This was the saddest birthday of my life.  Ohh wait, it was not like my birthday.

It was the worst birthday I've ever had. All day, my heart was depressed. Poor heart of mine. I want to cry with it but I simply can't. There are plenty reasons why he bothered to be depressed like that. There are so many stress, so many moments, so many people trying to destroy my day. I was not even given a birthday treatment. No gift, no treats, no blowouts, no money. How could I even celebrate a birthday without any of these?

I'm overreacting just because of this. Sad 18. I started my year weak. How much more for the coming years to come? I don't know. It's killing me.

Hoping that today's wound will be healed tomorrow.

#thatawkwardmoment when I'm turning 18.

Just a few more hours, then I'll be older than myself now.


Did I become better after all times? Did I become worse? Did I grow up to be a better man, or did I stay the same? Did I give myself what I deserve, or did I stay feeble. Did I experience love, or did I prove myself to be forever alone? I can't answer these questions. I don't really know the answers. All I can say is that, I grew up to be me, just the way I am.

I'll not be a minor anymore. I'll carry on more responsibilities and more burdens as I pave my way. Argh. I'll just let myself be flown away y the river and floated away by the wind to anywhere I will go, guided by God.

#thatawkwardmoment when that awkward guy turns 18. LOL