Kamikaze

The moment I heard the songs, I flew to the city of owls. I saw deers and bees and alligators. I saw galaxies. I saw flowers. It was magnificent. It was surreal. I cannot stop myself from singing and listening to the songs. As I continued this adventure, I saw all things bright and beautiful surrounding me. I saw the real world for once. I saw this daisies growing on a haunted house. After days and days of adorable sight-seeing, I flew out -- using my spaceship -- from the mysterious mind of the great Adam Young.

Sadly, I only had that time of my life online. I cannot buy it, for I had no shining coins and bills to pay for a multi-colored disc. I've become a Captain Hooke myself -- for I cannot resist myself from being one. I did everything for magnificence. I did everything for music. I did everything for love.

Gametime! Presents: Pokemon Black

I almost forgot. I finished Pokemon Flora Sky already! The finished there doesn't mean I caught all Pokemons already. Yeah it took me many many days to finish this game. At some point, I had to repeat the game all over again because at my last gym battle, the game did stick, thus, made me repeat the game all over again. It was sad, though, but I enjoyed playing the game again. And I finished it until the Pokemon League. But sadly, I cannot go to the other cities anymore. The game was corrupted so it went to new game again.


Now, I'm playing my Fifth Pokemon Game (First was Gold, Second was Leaf Green, Third was Sapphire, and Fourth was the Flora Sky) and its the Black version. I happened to meet new Pokemons -- weird and new Pokemons at the same time. Since it's my first time meeting, them, it's kinda awkward but it's fun at the same time.


Let me have my checklist.
Kanto -- /
Johto -- /
Hoenn -- /
Sinnoh -- not yet
Unova -- playing


After Black, Diamond or Pearl is next. So, I'll watch out. :D

Nothing Real

I remembered your name and your face when I heard Owl City’s Deer in the Headlights.

The lyrics struck me like the lightning of the June rains. The tune crashed into my heart like a meteor crashing unto the moon’s crust. The feeling is strange, though I have had this feeling years ago. It was like December when I last had a crush on someone, but now, here you are, colliding into my world, leaving me mesmerizing. Tell me again was it love at first sight, when I walked by and you caught my eye?  You walk passed by me like I was a dust in the wind. You never knew that my eyes are trailing at your beauty and innocence. You will never know that I have fallen for someone like you. I’m sorry I never tried.

I want to be near you. I want to know you better. I want you to let you experience the love I have kept for many years – which was supposedly given to a beautiful lady with big brown eyes and soft hands. Will I ever have the chance to do those things? If grasshoppers will be able to produce honey, then I will wear my heart on my sleeves. I will stand in front of you and say what I have in my heart, no matter how traumatic it is for you.

No one ever knew about this feeling for you. And no one will. I will write this down in chamber of secrets and after, I will close the book and no one will ever know.

Oh, I can’t just erase your sweet smiling face in my mind. I can’t erase the thought of being so close with you. But I know, it will end up like dust in the wind.

Too much the drama. Too much the same. But I will never forget you.

Scars

And when I thought you left me
when I thought you went away
you gave me this scar I cannot erase
why, didn't you hear my plea?

I'm jumping now on craters
The moon mirrored itself to me
I looked above unhappy
saying, "Can i still do better?"

I saw dawn approaching
as I tucked myself to sleep
But when emotions run deep
The fruits will start riping.

A poem with no sense I made
Cause I now am ruined
I know it's now up to the wind
for every scar to fade.

Call Lean!

I sat alone in my comfy chair, thinking of how awkward and stupid my week was. Aside from having that almost-perfect quiz, the using of microscope, and some free food, this turned out to be my worst opening yet. I had some many problems. First, all the awkward moments. Second, some major issues in class I need not to state. Third, the humiliations I had. And so on.

I was still in my world when, out of nowhere, I saw her, a girl so pretty, a girl so lovely, a girl too perfect for an abominable guy like me (I think I exaggerated that adjective. Haha. Oh well.). I saw her sweet smile, her long auburn hair which I admire, and her staggering simplicity – the main thing I like of girls. But wait, I thought. I never saw her before! It was then that I woke up from a dream. The hell, she’s in first year high school! I was stunned for a moment there, shocked by Pikachu’s electric bolt. That face? I thought, that face is a high school freshman? What the hell is happening in this world!

Going back, I know she’s a complete stranger to me. I do not know how she acts – if she’s talkative or naïve or rowdy or what. I don’t know if she’s good and she’s a lady with a halo. I only know her first name. How? It’s on her nametag pinned on her necktie. (Clue: combine the two words in the title. :D)

Ohh well, she’s just another girl who’s way too impossible for me. And, I have had this feeling again before. I saw that beautiful girl, simple and kind. But, she’s too young for me. At least now, she’s a third year high school student. She’s more mature now (this is another one, in case you haven’t noticed) and she’s more beautiful now, this little lady dressed in blue.

I wished I’m a professional already.

Emo

I want to cry. When i say cry i mean pouring all my emotions out that nobody will even argue or answer. All people will just listen as i tell them what i hate most about them. I want to scream my heart out, screaming all the anger that filled my heart. I want to do that. Even for just one day. I will pour my heart out just to easen this burden. 


I'm teary eyed right now. My heart is heavy, full of emotions. Can i blame him? Can i blame her? Or can i blame myself for this? 


I'm so depressed I don't know what to do. :(


My insides are dying yet i still smile. I'm an idiot.
I'm already messed up, but i still laugh. I'm so fucked up.
Guess nobody would care for me in the future except me, myself, and i.


shit.


i'm totally depressed.


woah. what am i even writing.


hoping for a better tomorrow.

Vitex negundo

I'm not at home right now.

I'm actually inside our school library, but I can never forget to update you, of course.

So, let me get it straight. Yesterday was kinda awkward for me. I don't know why. Maybe because I know I'm not with the youngest batch anymore. OR maybe because I was smiling at Freshmen who were not smiling back. Awkward! Haha.

But today, it was kinda okay for me. Hanging out with my only classmate in Biology; smiling and talking withsome First Year Nursing Students; being reprimanded for not asking for permission to borrow a microscope which was way humiliating. Other than that, yeah, okay. :D

Anyway, now I got my majors, I'm kinda a Nursing student now, only with no nursing subjects, but more on laboratories.

Hoping tomorrow will not be that awkward and hoping that tomorrow is a better day for me. 

And oh, the reason why I'm here in the library? Some scientific names. It's our Botany assignment, really. Haha.

That scientific name above, it's up to you to know.

Clue: the picture. :D