Sam Sung and I

It's May 13, 2012, exactly one year since my laptop,Sam Sung, and I first met. And it's been a wild ride. Sam Sung is the name of my laptop (basically because it's a Samsung laptop, okay, it's corny, whatever). I used it almost everyday with almost everything I do. I watch movies, I listen to music, I surf the internet, I make requirements, and do just about anything with it. It's one year of total life changing experience. I almost take it wherever I go. Though it's heavy, I'm so proud of having it. I would like to thank those who gave this to me. It means a lot to me. I love it and hope it'll be with me while it lasts.

About the Blog

So what is it about this blog?


Anyways, I'm Mark Francis Astom, my friends call me Mark or Francis, or Bon, or Penguin (and the least goes on and on). I call myself John F. Lemon. I sometimes call myself Maaku Furanshisu. Other times, when I'm at my most high, I call myself the King of the world.

Now, how did this king think of writing this blog?

It was May 30, 2012. It was midnight and I was still awake. I can't sleep that night and it was drizzling and so I thought, why not make a blog! I was reading two blogs before, one from a reporter, and another one from a musician. I was so inspired by them that I had to make mine. And there I was, 30th of May 2012 writing about all the random things I could think of that night.

After brainstorming of the me and my three alter egos, I have come up with my name, "Among my Frivolous Thoughts," after Owl City's song Angels. I had basically three themes for my posts: Euphoria (extreme happiness) for my happy thoughts of the day, Dysphoria (extreme sadness) for my sad and grievous thlughts of the day, and Whatever for all the random thoughts I have.

I post everything here, from my experiences to just plain nonsense. I also post songs here, poems, photographs and other creative thoughts of John F. Lemon. I also post about the chemical reaction that stirs the heart of Maaku Furanshisu. I post about where I go, all the awards I received, movie reviews, music reviews, games I've played, and many other more!

I have some series regulars here and I post them whenever I want to. These would include: Dear God, Love is..., When I Die, Year Enders, and that's all.

Damn. I'm so random.

When Life Gives You Lemons

Tonight I made another song. It's short, childish and superficial, but sums up almost everything I believe in.

When Life Gives You Lemons

don't hesitate my dear

have faith and do not have fear

when life gives you lemons

you gotta make them lemonades

you gotta smile everyday

pick up friends who'll surely stay

hug them tight and never

ever let them fade away

act to solve and don't just frown

nobody would hold you down

when life gives you lemons

you gotta make them lemonades

strengthen yourself and do believe

that no one will ever leave

you alone forever

you'll have someone to comfort you.

cut them, squeeze them and sweeten these

drink them, sell them, if you please

when life gives you lemons

you gotta make them lemonades

don't throw them, it'll do you bad

use them freely don't get mad

when life gives you lemons

you gotta make them lemonades

I Surrender

And out of boredom, I made another song. Take note, some of these songs I've been making has nothing to do with me and my life. Haha.

I Surrender

we've lived in a place of grief and war

i don't know why we've made this far

cause all i know is we're always fighting on

until we're broken, let us make this done.

white lies, you always give to me

this white flag is what i'll raise you see

cause all you give is misery and pain

this time it's over, i can't do this again.

though i try to fix this, you find a way to break my heart

so the best way to fix this forever, is to be apart, be apart

i can't do this anymore

our love is never like before

we've lost, this is not worth fighting for

i give up, i surrender, i am sure, i surrender, i surrender

this relationship is like a battlefield

a lot of trouble you would always yield

ohh girl i tell you, our love's drifting away

what will happen next? come what may

though i try to fix this, you find a way to break my heart

so the best way to fix this forever, is to be apart, be apart

i can't do this anymore

our love is never like before

we've lost, this is not worth fighting for

i give up, i surrender, i am sure, i surrender, i surrender

Photographs

And so I tried to make a free-verse poem after browsing some photographs. This is actually my second free-verse poem ever, so...

Photographs

Still images of what used to be

Static moments put on papers

Laughter and cheers i may not hear anymore

But smiles and memories would stay forever

We may never pass those ways again

Never to be repeated nor doubled

But these will keep me company

and let me reminisce

The things that used to be...

Dear God

I have failed You again God. I have failed myself again. I did my very best for this test because I know it was very difficult, but it was still not enough. I read my reviewer twice and understood them but I didn’t still have the right amount of knowledge to easily ace the test. When I reran my reviewer once again, I did not find any of the things that came out of the test. However, some of my other classmates have seen them. What did I lack today God? I did the best I could, figuring out to the best that I could, guessing the right answers, looking for the correct one. I’m such a fool. What if I tripled my effort, would I have easily taken the test without any sweat? I am sorry God. I failed. But please still help me make that cut-off grade. I don’t want to disappoint the people around me. I don’t want to disappoint my parents who are always there supporting me. If they were not around, I could have been lax, but I can’t. Teachers, my parents, and many people around me expect a lot from me and I have a lot of burden to do so I could prove them right. I need this grade, God. I know it is still midterms but it already causes a lot of changes in the finals. I did my best God. I know You will do the rest. We can do it God. In You alone my Hope is Found.

Hidden Whispers

I made another song. It's purely dedicated to someone. It's a secret. No one knows. No one will.

HIDDEN WHISPERS

i know you may not be mine

but let us talk for a few more times

don't stand up and leave me here

i still long for you my dear

please do not hesitate

don't throw this moment into waste

i am really into you

why can't you feel it too

i do love you, i do miss you

i told myself to forget about you

but when i see you, it changes and all i think about is you

you're the one that i want

you're the one that i need

ohh please don't go away

i only wanted you to stay with me

hold me into your arms

give the love that you'll need

 just please don't leave here

i don't want you to disappear away from me

you would complete my everyday

without you, my life would turn to gray

i want to show my love to you

but i'm just too scared to do

i love the moments when you're near

no other, it's just you and me here

i am really into you

why can't you feel it too

i do love you, i do miss you

i told myself to forget about you

but when i see you, it changes and all i think about is you

you're the one that i want

you're the one that i need

ohh please don't go away

i only wanted you to stay with me

hold me into your arms

give the love that you'll need

 just please don't leave here

i don't want you to disappear away from me

you're the one that i want

you're the one that i need

ohh please don't go away

i only wanted you to stay with me

hold me into your arms

give the love that you'll need

 just please don't leave here

i don't want you to disappear away from me

these hidden whispers i can't say

will i tell them to you or just let them fade away

It's still my first draft. Changes may happen with this song anytime.