Vulnerability

I just watched an episode of the Glee Project. It's entitled Vulnerability and its purpose is to bring out to the world what is vulnerable to the contestants and they need to wear it proudly. 

I have been a fan of the show since I first saw it on TV, and favorites developed. Two girls and two guys became my favorites on the show, although all of them were damn amazing. Marissa von Bleicken and Lindsay Pearce, and Cameron Mitchell and Damian McGinty. They are very good singers especially Cameron. I want his singing voice to be mine! LOL.

Going back, their third episode was about Vulnerability. Singing Mad World by Gary Jules, they all stripped down their over-the-top voices and went low while hanging in them are signs with their vulnerable words in them.  To name a few, Marissa used the word anorexic, Lindsay used the word fake, Cameron used the word misunderstood, and Damian used the word numb.

I was like engrossed so much with the music video that I came to realize my vulnerability as well. While watching these people break into tears while confessing these things, little drops of water also flow down from my eyes. I can relate. I also have mine. I am always this guy who us always left behind in any way. I am always this guy who's alone, who is left out, who has no friends, who is numb in relationships, who is misunderstood by many to be happy but really not, or fake (I'm not anorexic, tell you.). I am this I-always-want-company-but-I-simply-cannot-find-them-because-they-cannot-understand-me kind of guy so in the end, I feel alone. The word I'm going to write is INTROVERT. Yes, I am an introvert. I would just be alone and spend my time with Music than to be with persons who does not need my time much. I am an outward person, but, I feel more at home when I am at home with my self. Yes, I am an Introvert. That's my vulnerable word. That would be my greatest problem when I grow up. Who will I be with? Who will I hang out with? I'll just leave it all to God and myself. We will figure out a way.