Dear God

I am still swelling. I still don't know what to do God. Each day when I wake up, I wished that I returned to October 5, 2011. That was day before all of it happened. I lost focus. I lost mind-set. I lost my notes. That's why I got those. But, it was not entirely my fault God. I do blame myself, but not 100%. I don't want to speak more for this is a public site but God, You know my thoughts. Please enlighten each of our minds so that we can make things right. Please help us discern to the right path to go, and the right thing to give. And this might sound very surreal and impossible. But, please God. Please rewind the time, so that I could make things right again. May they give me the ting that I'm hoping. I don't have a face to show anymore God if this does not happen. I might disappear like an extinct species. God. Please. I love You.

I can barely breathe right now. My emotions are flowing intensely. And my chest is heavy. I smile but I'm thinking of that thing that might destroy me for good. In You alone God, my hope is found. :D