Nothing Real

I remembered your name and your face when I heard Owl City’s Deer in the Headlights.

The lyrics struck me like the lightning of the June rains. The tune crashed into my heart like a meteor crashing unto the moon’s crust. The feeling is strange, though I have had this feeling years ago. It was like December when I last had a crush on someone, but now, here you are, colliding into my world, leaving me mesmerizing. Tell me again was it love at first sight, when I walked by and you caught my eye?  You walk passed by me like I was a dust in the wind. You never knew that my eyes are trailing at your beauty and innocence. You will never know that I have fallen for someone like you. I’m sorry I never tried.

I want to be near you. I want to know you better. I want you to let you experience the love I have kept for many years – which was supposedly given to a beautiful lady with big brown eyes and soft hands. Will I ever have the chance to do those things? If grasshoppers will be able to produce honey, then I will wear my heart on my sleeves. I will stand in front of you and say what I have in my heart, no matter how traumatic it is for you.

No one ever knew about this feeling for you. And no one will. I will write this down in chamber of secrets and after, I will close the book and no one will ever know.

Oh, I can’t just erase your sweet smiling face in my mind. I can’t erase the thought of being so close with you. But I know, it will end up like dust in the wind.

Too much the drama. Too much the same. But I will never forget you.